The door opens and he comes into your home. This is the third time this month the two of you have met. You joke that you must be supporting him by yourself. He laughs like a boy, a blush and a dimple. You can’t help but like him, he is someone who listens to you, who understands that you love your no-good boyfriend even if he doesn’t want to have sex anymore. He is there for you when no one else is. You bring him to the bedroom and you take off each other’s clothes. It is like the beginning of a relationship when the first thing you want to do is have sex, then talk.

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His hands are guided along your body as if he were reading your mind. He kisses you at all the right moments. You don’t have to think or worry about anything, just your pleasure and his. It is all so easy, you think this is how it is supposed to be.

He is very hung and this time you attempt to take it all. It hurts, but your feel complete with him inside. When you are done, there remains a void. He lies in your arms, your boy-man, as if he were your lover. You attempt to explain the empty feeling inside, but you can not find the words. You cuddle him instead.

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You imagine settling down with him and setting him up in your house. He is very sweet and intelligent and you can picture the two of you getting on together.

You make an appointment for next week. You miss him before he even leaves. You stand at the door and watch him drive away.